There are so many of these floating around, just as there are every year. Most of them are probably more exciting than this one...
2013 was quite a year. I watched my friends and family have some great triumphs, and some cutting defeats. I had a few myself, even if most of them were probably only in my head.
Last year I quit working for USPS. It's been 11 months since I last considered swerving into traffic in front of a large truck in order to avoid having to go to work (ever again). I'm going to go ahead and admit that my most effective argument back then for *not* making that move, would be that it would be hugely rude to do that to the truck driver. There is a direct cause/effect relationship between the first and second sentences of this paragraph.
So, things were better, but they really weren't as much better as they should have been. I had so many options. I was perfectly positioned to start whatever journey would make me most happy. Problem was that instead of trailblazing into glory, I mostly just sort of wandered around feeling lost. I stumbled into some pretty good areas now and again- Tutoring at Bryant and starting up Tai Chi are things that I feel fantastic about- but I couldn't shake that feeling that whatever I chose would only lead to more stress and heartbreak and a lifetime of grays.
I have been fighting myself in this manner for my entire life. In some ways it has made me step up and become a better person. In other ways it has made me let great opportunities pass me by and choose by not choosing- which has never worked out well for me.
At the end of last year I made a plan for this year, as people do. Will it be abandoned part way through while I slide back into old problems? Possibly. I might also possibly prevail. Wish me luck?
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